The World Around Us

You know i was sitting here pondering what i should write.

Well today i was feeling very emotional. I actually just sit down and cried with my wife on my lap. Why you ask? Well I’m disturbed about alot of things going on in this world and I’m truly saddened by it. Every where i go i see and feel pain around me . Each and every day i feel the intensity of it growing. I see people raising children and there is no love for them. Only contempt for ruining your so called precious lives. When all in all your children should have been more precious than anything on earth. Yet many take this precious gift and turn it into something cold and heartless. Ive heard parents tell there children they should have never been born and believe me kids i know how you feel. It makes us feel like we were a burden and theres the guilt you feel because you believe it was your fault for ruining your parents lives. I know this demon guilt i still carry it to this day and no amount of counseling or pills or alcohol can rid you of it. Its sad you parents say these words with never a thought as to how you’ve made us feel inside. Or when you say we are useless or we will never amount to nothing we are a useless carcass of flesh in this world. Well your words can sometimes define our paths and like me it did.

That was one issue i had been feeling down about but another is i feel theres something inside me pushing me to tell you all that if we don’t change very soon many will not only lose their lives but their very souls. I’m not a Christan man yet i do believe in some of the bibles teachings. But at the same time i believe no man on this planet. To many of you with to many different ideas of what the truth. Now i had this inner voice in my heart tell me not to listen to you . The truth that i seek is inside me. And lately Ive felt this sense of urgency to tell you its just about time for things to change. A war is coming and will be unlike any we have ever known. I’m not for sure what my creators name is but i feel it inside me. Showing me the world and showing me things happening around me. It seems with every passing year it gets worse. But lately it feels like its going to blow soon. Then all your precious money you’ve horded deceived people for stoled and killed for will not be worth the paper its written on. So truly your life will be forfet if you try to hold onto it. People love money more than human life and value a piece of paper over love and friendship. Woe unto you for your time and reward are coming to you and pity there will be none. War is always present around us and for you who are fighting in it i give this warning. Woe unto you for you who pick up a sword against your brother ye shall die by it. Whatever is up there is warning us to stop what we are doing before its to late. Very few will listen i know but those who do You Will reap the reward you have coming so love and care for one another cherish life and give praise to whoever your god or lord is follow the rule of loving your brother no matter who or where they are from. This government and many others would have us believe war is necessary and to hate your enemy I tell you this, a great man once said love your enemy. How can you love this enemy if your putting a bullet in his head. Don’t be brainwashed by governments who are feeding off of you like leaches. They feed off your hard work they lie they cheat and they steal your very lives away from you.

WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!

The Light

I know a lot of you think I’m a dark person only looking for the bad.That is the furthest thing from the truth.

I do seek those who have a glow still left in them. Yes i do see the bad in people but there is so much to see sometimes it feels like that darkness has swallowed up all those lights that still persevere out there, But i know its only dimmed them from my sight. There are still some who glow like a lighthouse beacon that guides our broken ships to safety. No matter how dark it gets i can still see a glimmer of hope for mankind. There are some who still believe as i do. The earth has taken a beating yet she still struggles to survive. Its amazing how you can pour concrete on her and life will still push thru. We could all learn from her perseverance. Be like her she never gives up no matter what we do to her. If you see these ones who glow like the sun in a darkened cave reach out and take them inside you. Let their light fill you and lead you from this darkened world of agony and pain. These are sent to us from some higher power to lead us from this sad world to a better place where there is no more pain no more agony. Just keep in mind that this place exist and hold on to your dreams of one day that we will live together in harmony. I know sometimes even for myself i do doubt that will happen but i get back to my feet shrug off the nightmare that this life brings to us and remember the dream that’s inside me .The dream of a united world where all care for each other where hate was abolished and love came shining thru.

The Ant

I think we can all learn alot from this little guy

THE ANT

Be ye therfore like an ant.

In his world there is no cant.

He adds his full will to serve from his purpose he wont swerve.

He will lay down his life for his brother.

He will lay down his life for another.

So be ye therfore like an ant in his world there is no cant.

Willingly surrender willingly lay down your life.

For your fellow worker for your fellow man.

What greater love can one have.

Where Were you

You walked past me today.

I was sitting in front of the store close to where you live. I asked you for bread, but you gave me a stone. I asked you for a drink to quench my thirst, but you gave me a serpent.

Later you pass me again.

I was lying on the sidewalk in pain. I asked you for help but you laughed at me and kicked me then gave me a sword.

Again still you pass me once more i lay motionless on the street. You held up your head and looked straight ahead and passed me by.

Now the years have passed and so have you.

I see you again. You ask me What is my reward? I give you a stone i give you a serpent then i give you a sword.

I turn my back cause I see you no more.

The Window

I stand there gazing at the world outside. I wonder do they see me looking at them? Watching them walk by. I watch them like rats scuring to and fro. Do they see me? Can they see the tears i cry for them? Can they truly know how i feel so deep in my heart? I wonder do they see anything beyond whats in front of them? I turn to see a screen splattered with injustice and pain, I see a few with hands outstretched calling to them but they cannot see or hear. The world has blinded them so they walk ever forward as if they were hypnotized by some unseen force that calls them to their doom. It saddens me to watch this daily occurrence. I scream so loud that even the heavens hear my voice but you just keep walking by only to seek that which will only bring you a temporary happiness. I seek the eternal joy that so few seek these days. The joy of the love of another is worth more than any gold or diamonds that you seek. Your happiness was only short lived and like a drug you strive for it. But in your last days as you look up from the box lined with velvet you see no one is there.

Death Sentence

Well here I am again. I’m coming to you from the good ole USA. Today in the Nytely News we are going to discus a few topics Very controversial at that.

So lets get started shall we.

The Death Penalty.

Well you might wonder do i believe in the death penalty. Yes I do very much so,but hear me out before you judge me.

First off lets play a game this game requires imagination. Close your eyes for a moment and place your self inside the victim better yet become the victims family. Your little girl has been molested and murdered by what they refer to as human being. She went thru an unholy torture and more pain than you could ever imagine. Feel her family can you? Does it hurt? Is it not painful enough for you? Now the man or person who committed such a foul deed should he not pay with his life no matter what as long as hes proven guilty beyond a Shadow of a Doubt? I think so. If it was someone close to me he did this to, The courts would do it or i would!!!!!!!

Our courts are not up to par these days and our laws need an update. People are getting away with vile acts on technicalities and i say that’s bull. I’m tired of murders and pedophiles hiding behind the law rapist go free because his rights were infringed. This system has a way of letting people with money commit Hannis crimes and set free due to bribes.

Judges sit in judgement over men these judges less righteous than the men they are in judgement over.

So yes i believe in the death penalty for ones who commit acts that are Hannis and purely brutal. We all make mistakes but if these criminals were put to death then maybe people would think more about the consequences of their actions.

Who would i give the death sentence to.

1. Pedophiles: Anyone who molest a child rapes a child or murders a child. For one the pedophile himself in a way if he hasn’t murdered the child physically has for sure done some damage to the child’s mind that’s inacusable. I don’t wanna hear that old line they give i couldn’t help myself.

2. Murders: Really cant say everyone who commits an act of murder should be executed. But for those who murder with intent and do it for the thrill let them suffer the fate of their victim.

3. Rapest Should they be executed I think in brutal cases they should or at the very least they should be castrated and not allowed anywhere near society again.

Now these are just my opinions you decide for yourself how you would feel if the victim was you or someone you loved.

People Today

You know Ive been so frustrated with people the last few years I could just scream. For instance you go in wall marts (I hate Wall Mart) the people are rude and always in a hurry to go nowhere. But its like that everywhere you know. I’m sick of it. You people need to wake up and smell the flowers. Get that smirk off your faces and live a little. All i ever see is mad faces people shoving and pushing each other WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!!!!!!!! You know those people your cutting off on the freeway or riding on their ass cause your in such a hurry you’d risk the lives of people on the freeway to go home and watch cartoons or the people that you shove your way past in the supermarket are the same people you might need someday and just maybe they’ll remember how you treated them and leave you lying in the puddle of blood you made for yourself.

And some who call themselves Christian I’m ashamed of you for the way you act towards people of different beliefs. I’m not a Christan myself you might say I’m a searcher But i don’t care what you believe its your right to do so and i don’t think anyone has a right whatsoever to kick you down for your beliefs. You know why i started this blog i was hoping to open a few eyes get people to look at what they do have to appreciate the good things in life to see that there are others in this world who have it far worse than you but i wonder if I’m wasting my time with people or is it somehow going to help someone or maybe you cant be helped. Ill tell you this people thought i was hopeless case to but i proved them wrong. So hey prove someone wrong show them your not hopeless care a little take someone off the street buy them a meal. No don’t give Them money but whats it gonna hurt to buy them a burger or just a soft drink show you care spread it around. Slow down your going way to fast your missing all the beauty life has to offer you sacrifice that for what? your jobs. Life is way to precious to waste it. I wasted a big chunk of mine but i began to realise that all the junk the world had to offer was no Comparison to what life had to offer. Keep it Simple Keep it Real.

Smile,lend a hand and don’t expect anything in return turn that black heart into a caring heart.

Come on people before its to late

Nyte

About Me Pt2

I just wanted to warn all you kids out there that drugs are a dead end road.

I personally cost many their lives due to my greed not for money but for a white powder that very nearly cost me my life. I didn’t out right kill anyone but i was the cause of their deaths. My cousin Lost his life at very young age. It was my fault and I have to bear that for the rest of my existence. He was young and i should of took care of him and i didn’t i only cared for the drugs and now hes gone, Like many who knew me. And to all that I broke into their houses never thinking about the outcome not my outcome but theirs and the scars i left them to be feared the rest of their lives never feeling safe again. I wish i could make amends to these people but unfortunate I don’t even know them maybe if i had it would make it easier to live on but its not easy and never truly will be. But I changed I turned it around. Now please let me help you with my words. Its all i have left to give for all Ive taken.

Don’t do drugs you don’t need it it will only kill either your body or your mind or Those you call family and friends. Don’t end up like me full of sorrow and regrets.

Do something worthwhile go out enjoy life in the very little time you have.

I dedicate this to my cousin Jeffery

I miss you everyday and always think of you wherever you are.

Im sorry i let you down.

A Little About Me

OK I’m going to let you inside my world just a little.

I know your thinking here he goes again whats he gonna preach this time LOL.

Well not really preaching just giving you some insight as to how I got where I am.

First lets go back to my childhood (what a mess that was)

My mom and dad if you so chose to call them that (I wont tell you what I call them) they were Jehovah’s Witnesses. Now don’t get me wrong this is nothing against their religion but it seems they take things a bit to far, well at least some of them do. Like my parents for instance .(Spare the rod spoil the child) This one verse from the bible can lead to some pretty harsh punishment even brutal . You know those religious types who take to the extreme. Well there you have it My parents. The gruesome Twosome. I spent most of my childhood in fear of the very 2 people I was suppose to be protected by. Now ain’t that something to grow up in fear of the very 2 people who were suppose to love you. But Oh no they couldn’t do that they had to hurt me beyond all I could take. The physical part I probably could have handled but the mental cruelty I endured for so many years had some pretty severe repercussions on myself and on them.

When I was about 13yrs old i was introduced to the best friend I thought I would ever have. Good ole Mary Jane. Yes she very rapidly became the love of my life in a few puffs I felt no more pain and man did that feel good. But little to my knowing Mary had some friends and wasn’t to long after I met her I met her friends to and did they ever make Mary look like candy instead of the full course meal. First i met Mr Quaalude. Then I met LSD. But I wasn’t happy with just those friends. I had to go a little further Cause the further down I went The further My mom and down climbed down into the depths of my mind. I really thought i was escaping but not really it got worse. I wasn’t satisfied with just a little buzz anymore I wanted the Ultimate high so i met a guy i wont say his name but in just a few minuets and 1 shot I was hooked I met my new friend Meth, Speed whatever you know it by its just the ultimate.

My life spiraled downhill I robbed I stole from anyone and anybody I lied I cheated and came very close more than once to killing for it, All this to escape. Oh I escaped To the mental institution to prison to countless number of jails and FOR WHAT. Because I let one man rule over me long after I had left there. Who’s choice was that it was mine nobody to blame but me. You know even the judge in my hometown labeled me carrier criminal. I was the lowest I admit and it wasn’t till about a year ago I gave up my last vice that was Mary we had been friends since my childhood, but I left her behind. I found what I had been searching for and her name was Nytegoddess boo someone I finally found that someone who still had a spark of humanity left in them and believed me Mary went to the wayside and boo got in where no one else could. She went thru my steel walls my concrete barriers, she got to a heart that had blackened over the years I LET HER IN. My family however cannot bring me anymore pain because today i release them. In my hatred I cursed them to die slow deaths and feel the pain I had endured as a child I let them go they hold me no more and I hold them no more. There is alot more to this story than what Ive told you here today but that’s another time and another place. But one thing id like to say to you parents please treat your children with love and compassion don’t hurt them cause you might regret it later.

Unlike some I knew. I LIVED!!! They Didn’t!!!.

I dedicate this post to all my lost friends who died to get a buzz. May whatever is over us watch over you now. Some of you I miss more than others but i still cry for you and it hurts to know that you left this world not knowing what it felt like to be loved and for that I’m sorry

I didn’t love you more.

The True Hero

I might ask you what is a true hero?In my earlier post I made a few remarks on hero’s, But as someone pointed out I left out the true hero’s.Now a true hero wants no recognition for their acts.They go unseen and often unknown.Why? Well their not famous they are not rich.(But truly they are rich)Why you ask?Well ill tell you why. They are rich in spirit for they are the ones who give and help without wanting anything back for it. Now that’s a hero. A man goes into a burning building saves someone and walks away. (HERO!!!) Another jumps into a river and saves a life. Without a thou gt for their own life. (HERO!!!) These are the true hero’s not one thought that just maybe they will die trying to save another life. That’s true human compassion. Reaching out not just with your body but with your heart and soul now that makes you a hero. Its not being a rock star not being a movie star or being rich. These People are not heros by any means.Nyte